𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘮 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥.
𝘐𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤, 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘢 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨.
𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 ‘𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘐 𝘥𝘰’, 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴. 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯, 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨.
𝘐’𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘵, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵’𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦.
𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘱𝘶𝘴𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘢𝘥.
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮. 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸.
𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘕𝘰𝘷𝘢 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘱𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭.
I will love you forever and always, to the stars and back again.
I remember the day I wrote this, I was really struggling with Nova, she was just being so awful. Throwing huge tantrums, doing the complete opposite of everything I wanted her to do. She refused to nap. She kept smacking me. It was honestly just one of those days where I felt like such a rubbish parent. But then she came and sat down next to me, cuddled up and asked signed for some ‘booby’ and as I stared into her beautiful blue eyes every bad feeling I had that day just drifted away, I wasn’t a rubbish parent at all. She needed me and to her I am everything.
I’ve obviously had days similar to this but all it takes is for Nova to show me that I am all she needs.