A little tough.

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶𝘴 𝘵𝘸𝘰,
𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶,
𝘉𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘺, 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘥𝘰.
𝘔𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦,
𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴,
𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦.
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺, 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺,
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘥, 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥,
𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘯𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺.
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘺,
𝘓𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘛𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘺.
𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦, 𝘤𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦,
𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯,
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦.
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘦’𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦,
𝘐𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨,
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴, 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳.

I remember writing this poem after having a really bad day with Nova, sometimes she can be so testing. I had to have some time off work due to an issue with my knee and I couldn’t even take her to the park so we were stuck inside driving each other insane. It frustrates me so much because I know that she is just learning how to deal with her emotions and this is all part of her development but at times it feels as if she is doing it to get under my skin. I then write about how I’m feeling in that moment and realise how ridiculous it is of me to expect a 16 month old to know how to purposely annoy me. Now I’m back at work it is certainly easier but there are definitely still days where this poem resonates with me immensely.

Emily ♥